Saturday, September 30, 2017
Monday, September 25, 2017
Old Mango Trees along the Makiki Valley Trail
Looking back from the time I got out, I didn't see growth and healing in my life on a daily basis but see growth in the process of time. I feel closer to my Lord now than ever in my life. I still don't trust Christians in authority (even though my father was an example of a godly pastor) so do not regularly go to church. Instead, I listen to Christian topics on YouTube while I paint watercolors that I pray reflect the Master Artist.
My closest times with the Lord in fellowship with Him are when I go on my hikes in the Hawaiian rain forest. It is easier to talk to Him there than at home. I am so thankful that I do not need to play by “YWAM rules” to grow in my relationship with Him. I do not need to go through the (copyrighted by Joy Dawson) YWAM steps of intercession to get to the throne of Grace.
Sunday, March 19, 2017
Common themes in YWAM abuse worldwide
There are currently 129 members in my Spiritual Abuse in YWAM Facebook group. Some join & never make any comments. Some are currently in YWAM, perhaps to “spy”. I have had the group a few years now & members come & go but slowly increases over time. It has been a good place to talk about the various abuse and false biblical doctrine inflicted by YWAM bases worldwide. The common denominator seems to be power trips by controlling leadership and shaming if you do not accept the YWAM party line. There is something wrong with you if you do not tow the line or if you think for yourself & make your conclusions & ideas known.
The group has helped bring closure & healing to many who are left wounded after their YWAM experience after going into YWAM in search of a better relationship with the Lord & to be around others who are on fire for God but turned into abusive nightmare instead. Some were disillusioned & left after a week or so while others, like myself left empty & spiritually numb after 12 years of service. The group has been used to help inform people who were planning to join YWAM not to.
If anyone who reads this is thinking of joining YWAM, I'd invite you to join our group & see how it has affected over 100 people. Several have even left God behind (including former YWAM leadership) & are now atheist or agnostic. I personally have a better relationship with the Lord than I ever did when in YWAM.
Wednesday, May 18, 2016
Tuesday, December 29, 2015
Thursday, December 17, 2015
Friday, December 4, 2015
I was walking in Chinatown & saw this Christmas tree in a Chinese store so thought I would take a photo from the doorway. The woman working there ran up to me & said, "No pictures, no pictures!" I asked her why that was & her response was, "It's a RULE!" Again, I asked, "Why?" She replied, "I don't know!" I immediate thought of YWAM & the legalism that is so prevalent on so many bases rather than walking in grace & love & often, leaders do not even know why...
Sunday, November 29, 2015
Cartoon by David Hayward
If you are considering a YWAM DTS, please read the lengthy account of one who experienced it firsthand by Laurie Jacobson. It could spare you a lot of money, time & most important, spiritual damage. CLICK on the headline below to view article:
Thursday, November 6, 2014
When I left YWAM in 1995, since I left with no self-esteem and little faith, I wondered if God would care for me away from the base. I was timid, quiet & afraid. Being a “starving artist”, I thought that surely even if I could pay the expensive rent & afford the overpriced food in Hawaii, I would not be able to go on another overseas trip.
God knows the desires of our hearts. He has always provided for my needs & many of my wants, but still I doubt when I am put to another test for trusting Him.
Since that time, God has allowed me to go on trips to Italy, Brazil, Canada & Australia. This past June, a retired doctor friend offered to take me with him on the trip of a lifetime. When I asked what my portion would be he said, “Nothing”! I just had to accept the gift, which was an example of grace. We went to New York for 3 nights and stayed right at Times Square & then did a 7-night crossing on the Queen Mary II before spending 4 nights in London.
I cannot relate in words what an amazing trip this was. I would never even think to have desired to do something this extravagant! Whilst in London, we went to a small café for lunch. We saw a photo of some organ pipes on the wall. My friend remarked (since he is an organist), “I would like you to paint something like that for me.” The above is the painting I did for him after we got back as a thank you gift!
There IS life outside of YWAM, an abundant life! “Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us,” Ephesians 3:20 (NIV)
The 12 years I was at YWAM Honolulu, I rarely saw true servanthood of YWAM leaders. Those who were the servants were usually those on base who did not have many qualities YWAM could “use” on the outside or a charismatic personality. The unsung heroes would quietly serve the Lord in whatever capacity. God saw these people though & that is who matters!
The past few years since I started the Spiritual Abuse in YWAM Facebook group, many have come and gone. Some are probably YWAM “spies” to read what is being said about the group & then leave. There are 92 members at the time of posting this. There is a core group of members who have joined for the long haul & who want to get the word out as to the reality of the abuse people have suffered at YWAM.