In
YWAM, we are often guilt-ed into going long-term as missionaries to a
far off country. We are led to believe that that is the highest
calling in life & that we do not need an education or skill but
just to "obey the Great Commission and GO!".
Those put up on the highest
pedestal on base were those who were coming through on furlough from
a place like India or Pakistan or even Japan. Those who felt called
to be on base staff & do yard work or work in the kitchen were
often overlooked as they did their job daily since it was not
"spiritual".
We are all individuals & have
our own giftings & callings which may or may not fit into YWAM's
vision for the world. I remember feeling guilty because I did not
think my gift of art was "spiritual" (even though I put
together tracts, book covers, T-shirts & other printed materials
on base).
I am FREE of that now. I know that
when I sit & paint, I am using the gift God gave me & it
doesn't need to be something with a religious theme! I am worshiping
God when I go on my hikes & spend time in His creation. I am
simply being me & that is all that is expected of me. How freeing
it was when I realized I did not have to be an evangelist. I have
always hated public speaking & hated when YWAM would try &
force me to give my testimony at an open air (I never did).
How good it is to just love Jesus
and not feel compelled to do something to gain his grace & love
but just be me.
