Wednesday, August 5, 2020

YWAM and a Poverty Mentality





Someone recently asked about the "poverty mentality" in YWAM. Here is what I told her:

Since people who join YWAM need to raise support from individuals & churches, it is hard to raise enough money to be able to live comfortably, have money for daily needs, health insurance & save for the future & retirement. There are a few who go into YWAM from wealthy backgrounds or have huge monthly financial support from large churches.

Many of those who go into YWAM have a scholarship from a third world country which usually means they have enough for airfare & their school fees, but not much else. Once they finish their schools & stay on school or base staff, they have nothing!

Even though most people in YWAM would be in the legal definition of poverty, you are told to “trust God” for finances. Most are not allowed to get even a part-time job off base to make a little money to survive. This can mean that your staff fees carry over to the next month & the next, so by the time you want to leave, you are in debt to YWAM for thousands of dollars that they expect you to pay them once you move on.

There is the YWAM elite who are charismatic speakers & whose airfares are paid to fly to bases around the world to speak as well as given an honorarium. Many of these speakers also write books that they sell on YWAM bases and elsewhere. Most people in YWAM have little or no way to raise extra money and have little set aside for emergencies.

Also realize there is pressure on staff and students to dig deep financially to help out those who can not pay off their school fees.


 

Saturday, June 6, 2020

Variegated Banana Leaf




Variegated Banana Leaf

Watercolor Arches HP 140#
21” x 17” (53cm x 43cm)
$1.200. USD

Wednesday, May 13, 2020

Memories of Being in YWAM

This is from my journal, 2 1/2 years before I left YWAM. I felt pretty much like this until I got out! I just had to wear a mask for survival! I have healed soooo much! ❤️


Saturday, December 14, 2019

Meet Matt


Here I am with my friend Matt (who's with the Lord now, due to a stroke) ministering to Aboriginals at Kings Cross on the Summer of Missions we led in Sydney, Australia. We never thought they'd let us lead an outreach because of how we liked to fool around & have fun on base & looked for ways to skip intercession.

With Matt, what you saw is what you got. He loved the Lord but hated the politics & legalism of YWAM & spoke his mind.
 
Matt had his vices he never seemed to be able to overcome but through it all, loved Jesus.
I respected Matt, in spite of his struggles unlike leadership in YWAM who liked to come across as having it all together. Matt was transparent with me about his struggles & I with Matt.

Matt used to get excited about things & say, “This is REALLY livin'!”. I can just imagine Matt walking the streets of gold in heaven & shouting out, “This is REALLY livin'.”!

Friday, November 22, 2019

Buttons






When I was about 10, my parents had a birthday party for me. Several children came & brought presents. After the party, I gathered up all the gifts, gave them to my older brother Tom & said, “Here, I don't want this junk! I want a puppy!”. It wasn't long after that that my parents relented & bought our first family dog, Buttons.

Buttons was a friendly dog & would even smile when you would talk to her. We had a postman that would carry his bag of mail with him & give Buttons a ride in his bag around the block. Buttons likes the postman & would smile and sneeze when she would see him coming, happy to see him.

One day, there was a new postman. Buttons smiled as usual, but the new postman took it as a snarl or threat & kicked Buttons. Buttons would never trust a postman again & would bark & get agitated if she saw one, or even a mail truck.

I believe that most of the victims of abuse in YWAM were like Buttons in the beginning of our YWAM experience. We looked upon the leaders as safe & approachable since they were in the “service of the Lord”!

When we were suddenly abused by one or more in leadership, it took away our faith & trust in leaders. For a lot of us, there may always be distrust when is comes to men & women who are in spiritual leadership positions.

Wednesday, November 13, 2019

Sexual Abuse in YWAM?!!

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https://medium.com/@rebeccalujanloveless/ywamtoo-my-sexual-abuse-story-f891884af23c

Another Good Blog Exposing YWAM Abuse


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https://ryanespringer.blogspot.com/2019/11/culty-is-as-culty-does.html

Monday, November 11, 2019

What is Spiritual Abuse?






I have often heard it asked, “What is spiritual abuse?” Here is my answer:


Spiritual abuse can mean many different things to different people. It usually has to do with control and manipulation. It is causing you to doubt yourself when you are aware that something is not right, making YOU the problem rather than an issue you think needs addressing or not treating everyone as equals in a school or base. Control of relationships when people are adults and not in sinful behavior. Speaking for God so you can not question them, for then you are questioning God. Trying to coerce you into what you should do with your life whether you feel you have that calling or not. Telling you that you do not need a university education to do the Lord's work, so you should forgo college & stay in YWAM. There is a LOT to it. It is not a small box that either one fits in or doesn't. Each person who's been spiritually abused might give a different definition as to what it is.