Old Mango Trees along the Makiki Valley Trail
There
are now 176 members in the Facebook group I started, “Spiritual
Abuse in YWAM”. I have heard so many abuse stories that took place
in YWAM. Many have symptoms of PTSD years after getting out. I have
been out of YWAM Honolulu since 1995 yet still have nightmares of
being back in the cult of abuse & control. The past couple of
years, there has finally been some healing with fewer & less
dramatic nightmares when I do have them.
Looking
back from the time I got out, I didn't see growth and healing in my
life on a daily basis but see growth in the process of time. I feel
closer to my Lord now than ever in my life. I still don't trust
Christians in authority (even though my father was an example of a
godly pastor) so do not regularly go to church. Instead, I listen to
Christian topics on YouTube while I paint watercolors that I pray
reflect the Master Artist.
My
closest times with the Lord in fellowship with Him are when I go on
my hikes in the Hawaiian rain forest. It is easier to talk to Him
there than at home. I am so thankful that I do not need to play by
“YWAM rules” to grow in my relationship with Him. I do not need
to go through the (copyrighted by Joy Dawson) YWAM steps of
intercession to get to the throne of Grace.
I
often pray for those who are members of the little Spiritual Abuse in
YWAM group, especially those who now consider themselves atheist due
to the spiritual harm they experienced during their time with YWAM. I
pray God brings some godly examples of Jesus to their lives to show
them His love & grace. I know, had I not had examples of godly
Christians in my own life (including my parents) before I went into
YWAM it would have been easy for me to leave Jesus behind the door
when I left YWAM as well. Still, he woos those who have given up on
Him back to Himself.
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